The world is too complex to satisfy all…

… So instead, you should do what puts your heart at ease.

That is the most precious lesson that I have learnt in the year 2009.

I see people everywhere, many close to me, fall desperately from grace. He would wades in a quagmire of filth, seeking to elevate himself above everyone else. Or he who bemoans the rest of the world for his own failings. He who holds himself in esteem when it source is merely charity.

It saddens me, but, we each walk our own path. We shape as much as we are shaped by the world around. And that which they walk is of their own volition.

I digress, sometimes, I get distracted.

As I was saying, I realize over the past year that I am prone to choosing a path that would satisfy the most number of people. A path of least attrition as Chye Ping once described it. Only problem is, the path of least attrition is not necessarily a wise path, it might be the slow path to eventual annihilation.
Alas, this path is never one of my own whims. It
lacked somewhat in satisfaction. Little did I realize how much it pains, until the Lady said to me “don’t do anything that goes against your heart. I can see the look of dissatisfaction in your eyes.”

It is time to abandon the politically correct, and be myself. Fear not about offending people, because afterall, the ones who matter, don’t care, and the ones who care, don’t matter.

Life is too short wasted on doing something you don’t like, and that’s a lesson I want to remember and practice.

That applies to my latest adversary/antagonist too. I respect her because she is following the call of her heart, and I will deal with her face on, and honourably, just as my heart says.

I am a little scared and afraid to face defeat, but I’d rather savour the bitter pain of loss than to live a bland permanence.